Friday, December 30, 2005

Dear God, it's me Carma

Dear God,

It's me again. I know it's been a long time since my last "formal" prayer but I talk to you on a daily basis so I know you haven't, nor will you ever forget me. While I know you know my inner thoughts and feelings I feel the urge to actually express them. I am feeling frustrated and my patience is running thin.

I am wondering how long we will need to wait till jobs come our way. I know that you will provide but do you also write checks to credit card companies and doctors offices? I don't mean to sound sarcastic or doubt your plan but I just wish you plan would be made a little clearer to me.

I need to know how I can help Ayron. You have always placed jobs in his lap and he hasn't had to actually look for one in his life. I am sure that you are teaching him how to look through this whole process but I see how frustrated he is. He feels he is a horrible husband because he can't provide for me. Remind him of how he did provide for me during the last 16 weeks. Remind him that his willingness to put his education on hold for me is another example of his willingness to provide for me. Help me to have the wisdom and words I need to provide for him both emotionally and physically.

I also would like some wisdom on how I can help my mom and sister. You have given them both so much courage in their lives but I am beginning to wonder if it is running out. I pray that you will help mom relax and use this time to reflect and decide what she can do for herself instead of for others. May those she has helped in the past be willing to help her now. Oh, thanks for reminding me to call her when I am done. I also pray for my sister. Bless her, for she was willing to move home to be with mom. I know that she may not realize it, but she is really helping me. I like knowing that someone is there with mom. Help her decide where she needs to be and when she needs to be there. I know she is ready and willing to get out there and help but she is waiting on your calling. I know you work in your time and not ours but send her a blessing.

Be with all of those traveling this weekend, like the Bennetts, the Cooks, and the Carnahans. Bring JoEllen a renewed sense of calm this weekend while her family visits. It will be the first time in a long time that most of us will be together. Help her to relax and enjoy the moment. Be with Jerry, Nikki, and the kids as they travel to Indy for Ayden's check up. May you provide healing for everyone, both emotionally and spiritually.

Ok, ok, you can stop nagging me, I'll go call mom!

Bless those around me,

What if they don't match?

I have been thinking about taking a "spiritual gifts" test lately, but I find myself hesitating. What if those results don't match with my life? What if I find out that the gifts I have been given don't match those needed to be a great educator? Am I sunk? Will the last five years of my life be thrown away? If they don't match what do I do? It's not like I can fight God about it. Well, I could but I wouldn't be successful. My sister invited me and my husband to a conference for young adults at "her" convent and I really want to go but I just keep thinking, "What if they don't match?" I know that I should have faith and trust that it will work out for the best but I don't want to change my career path. I have worked hard to get to get where I am at and I don't want to leave it behind. I keep coming back to the same dichotomy. On one side it is "What if they don't match?" The other side is "I'm curious about what God has in store for me." I just wish I could completely take that leap of faith to find out what I am supposed to be doing with my life.

Thursday, December 29, 2005


I have discovered that I am grouchy. Not in general, although my sister may disagree, but today. And with no real reason why. I am still a week away from my "visitor" so I know it's not that. I tried tanning today to lift my mood, it did temporarily, but not for long. I just feel like being left alone for the whole night which is hard considering I married a man who panics if I sneeze. "What's wrong? What did I do? Blah Blah Blah..." I just wish he had a mute button. Don't get me wrong, I love the man and I don't want him to read this and freak out. I just like to be left alone sometimes. While I can fake the extrovert personality I like to be an introvert. He doesn't understand that women can be grouchy for no reason and pestering them only makes it worse! Maybe my grouchiness stems from my stress.

Ayron still doesn't have a job and the checkbook is getting awfully small. I start school in two weeks and have no way to pay for books let alone tuition. We have my ER visit bill hanging over our heads. I have to pay to take the Praxis II so that I can be licensed. I have yet to begin to study for that and frankly I really don't want to. Ayron needs to have his teeth cleaned for the first time in like 10 years and have a tooth pulled. I need to go to the "female" doctor. The urge for children is kicking in while the practical brain screams "WAIT." Winter time sucks. The two days of continual drizzle and grey are beginning to take its toll. I am fearing depression.

While I've never been officially diagnosed with depression, I have feeling I have come close in the past and I don't want to go back. It seems like everyone in this world is on some kind of "happy pill" and I don't really want to be one of those people. I know that medicine is a wonderful thing, but I also know that it is expensive and we cannot afford it right now. I would rather deal with it, I guess it's just my personality. I think I'm just grouchy. I feel like being grouchy so darn it, I'm gonna be grouchy.

GRRR! I was trying to add an image of Oscar the Grouch but just my luck the computer is not cooperating. Just my luck. GRRR!!!

Wednesday, December 28, 2005


I have tried to be strong and trust in God and wait for his timing, but I am beginning to wonder. Ayron still does not have a job and I cannot start substituting till after the new year so I am going stir crazy. He has two leads out on different jobs so I am praying that something will pan out. While it is nice to be home together and get things done it is frustrating since we can't do anything but stay at home.

On a lighter note, we received my aunts CHRISTmas present box from the UPS Santa. We were given a Kim Anderson ornament ("The Kiss"), a clown puppet (I collect them), a brain teaser puzzle (for ayron), and two LOVELY and unexpected gift cards(gas and kohls). I am trying to get Ayron up so that I can go shopping at kohls, but so far no luck! So a BIG thank you goes out to the PITT's.

Monday, December 26, 2005

After further Review...

After further review I have concluded that CHRISTmas was good for many reasons. We were given many things, mostly for our future kitchen, and some cool gadgets. No major disasters, just some overly tired nieces by the end of the night. We had a scare though. My mom and sister were coming back from Michigan on I-69 when they hit an icy patch and hit a guardrail. Thank God for guard rails! They are ok, and "Boiler" (my mom's car) only suffered minor injuries. I think I was more upset than they were. They called to tell us and I was all freaked out. My sister in law said, "At least they hit the guard rails!"

The BIG Reeves CHRISTmas is today. My father in laws sisters and all of their kids (about 30 people total) will be here today, so obviously my type A mother in law (see past blog) is frantically running around the house. It should be interesting. Several kids running around and a crazy grandma in the corner. I am not kidding. My husbands grandmother is clinically kookoo! They are bringing her up from the nursing home for the day so it should be interesting. She has demenshia and alzthimers along with other illnesses. I probably should get myself up from the computer to do something, but until I figure out what that something is, I'll just sit here!

Thursday, December 22, 2005

CHRISTmas Theory

While I know the real story and the real reason for CHRISTmas I do have several humorous theories/thoughts about the holiday. They are as follows:

With corporate (and the government) America attempting to be "politically correct" about the holidays and prayer, I begin to wonder if any of those people passed 11th grade History. Do they not know that our country was founded by religious people? Have they not read the Constitution or the Bill of Rights? Have they not seen the bumper sticker that reads, "As long as there are tests in school there will be prayer"?

Why does the magic of CHRISTmas disappear with age? Why do we stop believing in "Santa?" While I do know that a fat man in a large red suit will not be coming down my imaginary chimney, I do know that people who possess the same freewill spirit are out the in the world spreading joy. As I watch my nieces discover the truth behind "Santa" I begin to wish that I still believed. It is much more fun to think that "Santa" left a present under the tree instead of mom and dad.

Why do people who do good works only during the CHRISTmas season feel they deserve extra praise and attention? Shouldn't we, as Christians, be doing charitable acts all year long? Why do people feel they need to call attention to themselves for doing something they are called to do? Do these types of people not realize that charitable acts are needed year round? Do they think that the homeless/down trodden only need fed on CHRISTmas?

I believe that CHRISTmas separates the world into 3 types of people.

Type A consists of the people who stress over every minor detail. They count the presents to make sure everyone has the same amount. They create a detailed list about what they are going to get everyone and they panic if they cannot find something on that list. These are the type of people who run around the house cleaning the baseboard with an old toothbrush just in case someone decides to look behind the couch at the baseboard. These people also spend time organizing rooms that company will never even see. I live with this type of person, and as sick as it may seem, it is funny to watch them panic over every small detail.

Type B consists of the people who shop when they feel like it and don't worry to much. They find joy in hunting for the perfect gift. They don't make lists, but they know when the perfect present jumps off the shelf at them. While they have a majority of the shopping done by CHRISTmas Eve a few presents remain unwrapped. They focus on having fun and creating memories with the people who come around during the holidays. I am one of these people

Type C consists of the people who just don't care. This group is majority male and married and while they enjoy the holidays, they don't care about shopping. Most don't even shop. These males have usually been married for sometime and have a theory, "I don't need presents 'cuz I buy what I want when I want it. I don't need a particular time of year to get presents. " This is the category that my father-in-law fits in. In fact I pulled this theory right out of his mouth

Well, since I belong in the Type B category I should go wrap those last presents!

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

Such Strength

In the day and age when cancer seems to run ramped it seems we all know someone who has crossed its path. In the past 3 months I have lost a great uncle and an aunt to the disease. We have also found out that a cousin has been diagnosed with the killer. While some choose to get angry or just give up, one young man has choosen a different road. A young gentelman has been struggling with the disease for some time now. Johnny Chase was diagnosed with cancer some time ago. We have recently learned that the cancer is back and treatment will not help. He has chosen to spend his final days teaching others. Johnny was fortunate to be born into a strong Christian home and has the love of his family, oh and it helps that is dad is a doctor! Being born the 3rd of 12 children, the Chase household is filled with nothing but love. It is remarkable to meet someone who is fighting against the odds, not to live, but to teach. I can only hope that his strength will help others see the light of God. His entire struggle with cancer can be seen at I encourage you to send his family an encouraging email at

What Cancer Can't Do

Cancer is so limited...
It cannot cripple love,
It cannot shatter hope,
It cannot corrode faith,
It cannot eat away peace,
It cannot destroy confidence,
It cannot kill friendship,
It cannot shut out memories,
It cannot silence courage,
It cannot invade the soul,
It cannot reduce eternal life,
It cannot quench the Spirit,
It cannot lessen the power of the resurrection.

"Why must I bear this pain? I cannot tell; I only know my Lord does all things well. And so I trust in God, my All in all, for He will bring me through, whater'e befall."

Johnny passed away early this morning at home. It is a relief for the family because he no longer must suffer under the wrath of cancer. He passed peacefully, lying on the couch next to the family Christmas tree.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

On Hold for the Holidays

Most people begin their day with coffee or juice. I start my day by sitting on hold with the oh so lovely people at Lilly's Kids. I am trying to order a bed tent for my niece for her birthday. At this rate I'll be on hold till her birthdate! The concept of birthdates brings me to my next random thought of the morning.

Ayron and I have come to the conclusion that when we begin to have children we will need to time their arrival. The following months are already overloaded with relatives and friends.

Jan- brother-in-law, sister, niece, grandmother(although she is gone), uncle

Jul- uncles, aunts, moms, mine, sister-in-law, friend, friends child (soon to be children, both in july, estimated the same day), cousin, cousins baby(still in oven) and I'm sure I'm missing someone.

Aug(end)/Sept(beg)- niece, ayron, other niece

Theoretically this leaves us with the month of June. Our goal is to time the first birth in the "summer break" from school so that I don't have to take maternity leave. Don't start thinking we are going to start trying, heck no! We want to get settled first.

Well, I am still on hold...

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Ho Ho Holy Crap That's The Biggest Santa!

My husband volunteered to play Santa for the Spencerville Christmas Party this year. He managed to only make 2 children cry, one of those being our 2 year old niece. She was deathly afraid. We kept telling her that it was just "Uncle Arnie" playing dress up, but she wouldn't sit on his lap. He then lifted his beard to show her and then she proceeded to run around the party pointing at "Santa" and claiming, "That's my Arnie!" We were able to ride around the large town of Spencerville (I say that sarcastically) in the fire truck and run the sirens at 9am. We stopped at certain houses and yelled at them over the trucks speaker. It was fun. Marisa, our niece, still isn't completly comfortble going to Ayron yet, but all in time.

Friday, December 16, 2005

Millie Hansen Auditorium

Last night my husband, mother-in-law and I went to the grand opening of the Millie Hansen Auditorium at Eastside High School. After a cool ceremony honoring Millie (a physically old, yet mentally young activist in this area for the fine arts) the school performed the first musical in the auditorium. It is fantastic! The stage is huge and has so many things built in. 500 seat stadium style seating. State of the art sound and lights. My husband was jealous. When he was the star at Eastside the musicals were held in the old Cafitorium. Katelyn J. stole the show and Mrs. Dolly Levi. That girl needs to get her butt to Broadway. She won a local radio contest to win a trip to actually audition for American Idol. She carried that whole show!

Well, I should get going to Garrett. Everytime I went to get on the substitute list this week either the one lady that can do it was sick or the weather was so bad they cancelled school!

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

Friendly Wisdom

After sending an e-mail to a high school friend of mine explaining my worries/fears about my current situation (lack of jobs for Ayron and myself) I received a very uplifting reply. Sarah is wise beyond her years and great at encouraging others. She wrote:

I'm writing this email not really sure of what I'm actually going to say. I've been really good at advice in the past, but lately I just haven't had it...I'm kind of in a rut myself. All I know is that God will provide as long as you are in His will. What's His will? That's the question. As long as you are building relationships for His glory and loving those around you then I think you're in His will until He moves you on to something else. It's hard to trust...I'm in that spot too. I know He will provide. He has promised to never leave us or forsake us. Actually, that verse starts out by saying...Keep your lives free from the love of money, but be content with whatever you have for the LORD has said "I will never leave you; I will never forsake you". Does he want us to be lazy and haphazard with our finances? No, but He does want us to completely trust Him to provide. I'm realizing everyone has to come to this point in their Christian walk in order to order to enjoy the freedom of living in God's presence. He has to bring us to the ends of ourselves so that we can trust Him completely. I want to be there, and I know you do too...I'm not exactly sure how to do that, except to wake up everyday knowing that God will provide and living like He will. We know it in our heads, but it doesn't get to our hearts until we experience it. He wants you and Ayron to experience it, and you will if you will trust Him.
I'm not sure what to say about Ayron getting a job. There aren't many around...I know, I've been looking too, but about as hard as he has. I guess you just have to trust Ayron too. Help him in anyway you can to find a job he wants to do, but if he feels that he's okay waiting then you have to trust him in that decision. Don't let him be lazy, but don't be so pushy that he listens to you instead of God. I don't know what it is to have to trust another person like that yet, but it seems like that's the way it will have to be. God has not called us to be comfortable or to always stay the same. God has called us to a dynamic life of love and adventure...all to glorify Him. God also didn't call us to go through all of this on our own and I have found it so helpful to have friends who are going through the same thing and are willing to talk about it and trust God to bring the answer. Sorry, I really didn't know what I was going to write and I really didn't know it would be that long. But, writing this to you has helped me too, so THANKS! Carma, I love you and I would love to join you as you work through these things and make decisions for your future (and present). I'll be praying for you and Ayron, that God will direct you in the way you should go. Joining with you as you join with Him, Sarah

It was very encouraging to reconnect with an old high school friend. I only hope she is able to trust in Him and wait patiently while He arranges a job for her, either here or away. She has so much wisdom and I know God will use her in fabulous ways. While she is not sure what she is doing here or why she came back home, I am pretty sure she was sent back here to help me.

Monday, December 12, 2005

Finally Done!

I am finally done with student teaching. They ended up canceling school Friday due to snow so my last day I didn't actually do anything! I managed to fax my paper work in on Friday and drop off the "official" copy off today. I picked up my portfolio (a huge graduation requirement that is a hassle). I earned a 64 out of 68. I was happy, but my happiness turned to extaticness (is this a word?) when I discovered that the head of the education department evaluated my portfolio and gave me a 65! Yeah, apparently I do know what I am doing.

In other news, Ayron is without a job. He left Ben Davis for a company in Fort Wayne. Two days into training he discovered it was a pyramid scam and he left. There are several opportunities at various places, it's just a matter of talking to the right person at the right time. I am trying to put my trust in God, but when I watch the check book slowly disappear, I panic. What makes it worse is that Ayron isn't even worried. I don't know if he has a calm from God or if he is filled with stupidity! I know he is not stupid, but I wish he would do more to find a job. He called a couple of places today but I think that was only because I begged him. I guess it just bugs me that he sat at home all afternoon playing playstation when he could have been out applying places. He just keeps telling me not to worry, he'll find something. I just wish his serach would be more active. If he was actively looking I probably wouldn't be as worried. I am trying not to worry because it will only make me sicker, but I do not like the idea of neither of us having a job! I am going into Garrett tomorrow (the lady was sick today) to do all of the stuff needed to get on the substitute list there. Just keep us in your prayers and if you have any job openings, let us know.

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Praying for Snow

Yeah! Today is a short day. We get out at 12:40! I will get out even earlier, at 12! I have prep during the last hour of the day (since they changed the schedule today to accommodate for lunch). I plan on spending all afternoon doing just about nothing! I might attempt to wrap the last presents, but if not, oh well.

I am praying for the snow the weatherman said we are supposed to get. Some stations say 2-4 inches while others are saying 5-7. Either way, I am hoping for at least a delay if not a cancellation so I don't actually have to come to school on my last day of student teaching. I had Mr. V finish all of the paper work today "just incase." It would be cool though, to finally be able to sleep in during the week. I think that I was the only student teacher who did not have an unscheduled delay these past 16 weeks. I feel robbed. Sure, there were times when there should have been a delay, but there wasn't. Oh well. ONE MORE DAY!! I MADE IT!! I MANAGED NOT TO LOSE MY MIND!!(hey, no wise cracking comments about how I never had one to begin with)!!!

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

Hubby's New Job and My Celebrations

Well, Ayron, got a new job last night. He now works for Hydrasystems. It is based in Fort Wayne and it is a very profitable company. He will receive a base pay every week which will total up to be $1,000 more a month than his job at Ben Davis. Plus the option of commission on top of that large base pay. It will be nice to have some extra money to pay everything off and start looking at houses of our own. We have already been invited to the Christmas party, so that is cool! Ayron was the only one yesterday (an open interview call) who dressed nicely and brought a resume with him! It paid off!!

Today, each of my classes is having a party for me. My last day is Friday, but since today is a short Wednesday (they get out early) we are parting in each class. It's funny how a party for me turns into an excuse to have parents bake cookies and spend money on candy. Basically, it was an excuse for the students to get each other hopped up on sugar early in the morning!

Tuesday, December 06, 2005

A Much Better Day!

I am having a much better day today! I am feeling better which I am sure helps! Ayron had an interview today for a new job which pays well, so hopefully that will work out. He is supposed to call back tonight between 6 and 7 to find out. It would be cool if he got the job because it is better hours and $1,000 more a month than what he makes right now.

Student Teaching Update: I am officially done student teaching on Friday. I found out that Thursday is an early dismissal day! Yeah! I get out 2 1/2 hours early! Maybe I can finish up my Christmas shopping! I will teach through Thursday then spend Friday observing. I can't believe I am finally almost done!! Yeah!!

Monday, December 05, 2005

I Hate Mondays!

I managed to drag my feverish butt to school today. I opted to sit today and let the actual teacher teach. I spend the day grading papers and updating grades. At least I got myself caught up on grading. I would much rather go home and sleep tonight, but I have the appreciation event at IPFW tonight. I am going to make a good impression on the principal of Garrett because I really want a job there. I am wondering how good of an impression I can make being this sick. I had one student come up to me today and say, "Wow, you don't look good!" How do you respond to that? Well I am going to go to the clinic and get some tylenol.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Drug Bust

I have realized another "high point" of being a public school teacher. I saw that sarcastically. I have just spent the past 1 1/2 locked in my classroom with 31 7th graders. The school brought in drug sniffing dogs. Not a big deal you say? It is frightening to hear the dogs bark and scratch at the lockers because they were in the 7th grade hallway. Why are 7th graders bringing drugs to school?! Everytime the dogs started to bark my kids became all creeped out. I am hoping they didn't actually find anything. I guess that is just another perk of working at a large public school.

Am I Done Yet?

Once again, these little rug rats have infected me with their germs. I managed to drag myself to school, but not before falling asleep on the drive here. It was frightening to realize that I had driven off the road. I didn't wreck the car or anything, but the front right tire managed to leave the road before I was so rudely woken up. I am hoping that I have not developed mono. A good friend of mine was just diagnosed with it and she got it from her fiance. Her fiance works with my husband, hence the disease comes full circle. I was praying for a delay today, but once again God decided that I should drag myself to school on time. Maybe he'll grant my wish tomorrow morning. At least today is an easy day. I plan on going home and taking a nap. Maybe I can curl up during prep.....YAWN....

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Stolen From Natalee

Yes, once again I have stolen something from my sister's blog. Hey, I can't help it. I'm bored!

Section 1 - Have you ever
Cheated on someone?: Nope
Been Cheated on?: Yes, he was a loser
Fallen off the bed?: No comment!
Broken someone's heart?: Not that I know of
Had your heart broken?: Yes, he was a loser
Had a dream come true?: Yes
Done something you regret?: Nope, no regrets. You live, learn, and move on
Cheated on a test?: Nope, I'm a teacher for pete's sake!

Section 2 - Currently
Wearing?: tan cordaroy pants and a pink polo. I was forced to get ready in the dark this
monring because our power went out while I was in the shower!
Like anyone?: I like a lot of people, but I love Ayron.
Location?: Leo Jr./Sr. High School, room 516
Chatting with?: the voices in my head
Watching?: the cursor move across the screen as I frantically type and hit backspace
Should REALLY be doing?: nothing, I am all caught up on grading
Brush your teeth?: every morning and before bed
Have any piercings?: 4 holes in 2 ears
Drive?: Yes, although this morning I probably shouldn't have. The roads sucked!
Drink?: water, yes. alcohol, sometimes
Smoke?: nope, never have, never will
Got a cell?: yep, on silent and running on a dead battery

Section 3 - The last person you...
Hugged?: Ayron
Kissed?: Ayron
IMed?: Robert- friend in Oklahoma
Talked on the phone to?: IPFW School of Education
Yelled at?: Tyler H- talkative student. I didn't really yell, but he got the evil eye!!

Section 4 - Personal
What do you want to be or do, when you finish school?: English Teacher- NOT middle school
What has been the best day of your life?: Wedding Day: July 2, 2005
What comes first in your life?: family
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: nope, I have a husband
What are you most scared of?: being alone and cancer
What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: "I wish Ayron would stop snoring!"
Did you lose someone you really loved?: yes
Love your family?: most days
Are you a virgin?: nope

Section 5 - Favorite
Movie: The Notebook or Dirty Dancing
Song: Broken Road
Store: Target
Clothing Store: Torrid- feel in love on accident
Relative: niece
Sport: indoor soccer
Ice Cream Flavor: chocolate chip cookie dough
Fruit: apples
Candy: anything chocoloate, oh...FLIPS...yummy
Day of the Week: Saturday: I can sleep in
Color: Blue

Section 6 - Do youLike
to give hugs?: yes
Like to walk in the rain?: depends if it freezing rain
Prefer black or blue pens? blue
Like to travel?: yes, I love plain rides
Sleep on your side?: yep, the right one
Have a goldfish?: nope
Ever have the falling dream?: yes
Have stuffed animals?: yes, anything Zebra and Giraffe

Section 7 - This or that
Pierced nose or tongue?: nope
Single or taken?: taken
Sugar or salt?: sugar
Silver or gold?: silver
Chocolate or flowers?: flowers
Color or Black-and-white photos?: black and white
M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles
Stay up late or sleep in?: sleep in, yet I never do it
Hot or cold?: depends
Mustard or ketchup?: ketchup makes anything taste better
Spring or Fall?: fall, less chance of a tornado
Happy or sad?: happy
Wonder or amazement?: amazement
Mexican or Italian?: italian
Candy or Soda?: candy

Monday, November 28, 2005

Portfolio News

Well I received a letter from the unversity the other day. I scored a 64 out of 68 on the portfolio. That comes out to be a 94%. It is an A, but I still am curious about what 4 points I missed. I worked really hard on that and I want to know why I didn't receive those 4 points. Call me anal, but I worked hard and I want all the points darn it.

Another day student teaching. 9 more days to go and then I am done!! Yeah! My cooperating teacher is gone again today. I've been here more than he has been. They kids are begining to think that he has disappeared!!

Saturday, November 26, 2005

Shopping Surprise

I managed to drag my sister out Christmas shopping yesterday and to our surprise we discovered a new store in the Glennbrook Mall. It is called Torrid. It is for "plus" sized women and it is cool. Natalee actually tried on 3 or 4 dresses. Yes, family and relatives, you did read right. DRESSES!!! We feel in love with the store. Move over Fashion Bug and Layne Bryant I have a new favorite store. I am especially proud of myself because I didn't buy anything there yesterday. I could have gone nuts, but I didn't. However, I am planning on hitting the sales after the holiday's!

I attempted to make contact with two high school friends yesterday. It's amazing how we all still live in the same town, yet rarely meet. We are all so busy figuring out our lives. Turns out that "S" is thinking of moving to Idaho. I applaud her. I wouldn't have the guts to move on my own. It will be cool though because some other people our age from her church are out there. I have yet to hear from "E" though and curious about what she has been doing. "S" told me that someone we know is now engaged and my thought was, "She is way to young!" Then I realized I should shut my brain off because I was 20 when I was engaged and married right before I turned 22. I guess if I realized that she is old enough to be getting married then I feel old. I am not old darn it! I am only 22. Yet, student teaching has taught me I am getting old.

Well I should go help decorate the house for Christmas. My mother-in-law gets into decorating and right now it looks like Santa Claus has yarked all over the living room. Boxes of ornaments are everywhere!

Friday, November 25, 2005

So Many Thoughts, So Little Organization

Thanksgiving went well. Turkey was moist, Stove Top was cooked, yams were soupy. I have discovered that since being married, holidays have the potential to become hell. Now I have 3 families to please, well four. One: My mom. Two: In-laws (parents and brother's family). Three: dad. Four: the big Reeves side. We spent yesterday afternoon at moms and then came home and stuffed our face again with my in-laws. I feel some what guilty because I never made it up to dads. And with all of that eating, I think I could go for some more Stove Top right now!

I went and saw "RENT" with Natalee, Ayron and Mandy (Nat's friend). It was cool. I liked it. Made me think. What would it really be like to live in New York under those circumstances? I'm not going to run off and try it. But it was cool to see again. And the guys who played Mark and Roger were cute. While visiting the new movie theater in Auburn (NCG Cinemas) I had the opportunity to see people from high school. I think every member of the show choir was there. Did I talk to them, nope. But it was interstice to see them again and wonder what they are doing. Obviously I am not to curious because I didn't feel the sudden urge to ask them. I also ran into Adam S. and Josh S. at our indoor soccer games this past week. One looks the same (Adam) while Josh looks like a modern version of Jesus dressed in Aeropostle clothing. What's even odder is that he pulled off the look.

I thought about braving the idiots and going to fort wayne to get some presents, but right now I don't even have the ambition to get in the shower. Maybe I'll just look around on line and get more ideas.

10 more days and student teaching is done! I am so excited!!

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

The Joys of a Seating Chart

34 7th graders in a small, dark, internal classroom was not a wise decision. After trying several seating arrangements I have found a winner. How do I know it's a winner? It is silent in my classroom! They are working on a rough draft and for once in their life, all 34 of their little mouths are shut. Well except for the kid in the back corner who writes with his tongue hanging out. So peaceful! Yet, I don't get my hopes up because when I start the class discussion in 5 minutes the 3-ring circus will come back to my classroom and I will once again go home with a headache.

Bah Humbug!

Bah Humbug! I say that for two reasons. A) It has been snowing all day and rumor has it that the interstate is extremely slick. While I know the option of getting out of school early is absurde, it is still nice to dream. B.) I am starting to read A Christmas Carol with my classess today. Thank goodness it is collaboration day and we get out at 2:40 today. I could use a nap!

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

I Almost Forgot, I'm Domestic!

I almost forgot! This afternoon I baked two apple pies! One has a solid top crust while the other one is lattice! I also baked cookies and will ice them tomorrow! Former Family and Consumer Science Major (that's "home ec" for all of you non-politically correct people) strikes again.

Oh, an answered prayer. A family friend has been struggling after a horrible break up. He was emotionally and physically abusive etc. She is out in California at school and really struggling, but just this past week she has met a new guy and they are just friends. But she has nothing but positive things to say about him and it is so up lifting to hear her be happy again. I guess they have known of each other for awhile, but he finally asked her out on a date and they climbed a mountain, and then hiked back down and watched the sun set. He managed to steal a small kiss, he said, "I know you've been said and I know you've been through a lot. I just want to take it slow and if that means we only remain friends, I would love it." He is so sweet to her! I hope things work out. He is doing a semester abroad this spring and she said that while she will miss him, she will use the time to find herself and decide if she wants to be more than friends with him. I am so happy for her!

Another Lesson In Patience

Do you ever feel like God is punishing you? Ok, so I don't believe God is like that, but I do think he is teaching me a lesson in patience. I never prayed for patience, that is a double edged sword, but none the less, God has his own agenda.

I just got off the phone with my university supervisor for student teaching. Turns out my crack job of a cooperating teacher called her today all upset and rambling on about all of these days I've missed. He rambled on about nothing for 45 minutes before my university supervisor made up some excuse about having to leave. I would like to state that I have only missed two days. I missed one day because I had to rush Ayron to the dentist and I missed today. Was a running to the bathroom every 10 minutes to get sick today? YES! Did I drag my sick butt to school to help get him set up for the day today? YES! Did he lecture me about not going to the doctor? YES! Did he push me out the door today to come home and rest? YES! Mind you, two weeks ago I spent the night in the ER and I drug my butt to school the next day on one hour, ONE HOUR of sleep. He has to have some blood work done and he misses the whole day. I am getting sick out of both ends and I am made out to be the villain. Well, good does come from evil.

My university supervisor managed to all but call him a flake over the phone today. She then called the university IPFW student teaching coordinator and talked to her about him for an hour and all of the stress he has caused me over the past three weeks. I am proud to say that he will NEVER be allowed to have a student teacher again! THANK YOU GOD!! It just sucks that I had to be the "failed experiment." I was reassured that his comments and endless nagging phone calls to the university will not alter my grade in any way. As long as I finish out the 11 days left, I am home free.

On a more positive note, my cousin Becky and her husband Bobby adopted a Filipino boy today. His name is Noah and he is five years old. He speaks English very well and has been in the local kindergarten for about three weeks. A doctor brought him to the US in hopes of finding a loving family, and he did. Noah is legal blind. He only has one actual eye ball and that one doesn't work. He is currently learning how to real Braille in school along with everything else a kindergarten learns. Adoption amazes me. I hope to one day be able to adopt. I know it is expensive, but Ayron and I have discussed it. His uncle and aunt adopted a brother and sister from Russia five years ago and they look EXACTLY like the family. I am not kidding. Alex is a shrunken version of his dad and ayron. Regan looks exactly like her mom. It's funny that their adopted children look more like them then their own biological daughters do! Just more proof that God has a sense of humor!

Well now that I have vented my anger and shared my joys I will get ready for soccer. Ayron plays indoor soccer at the Classic City Center in Waterloo. Unfortunately, most of our games this session don't begin until 9. It makes for a late night, but it's fun.

Sick But Not Resting

I came home from student teaching because I am sick, yet again. My stupid galbladder is causing more trouble than good. I spent one night in the ER two weeks ago and I just received the bill from that and YIKES! I thought I would come home and relax. You know, lay in bed all day and watch movies or read a book. Nope, I came home and started planning lessons for next week. I have also managed to organize my clothes wardrobe, do three loads of laundry, and wrap some Christmas presents. I guess I could/should register for next semester and pay a couple of bills since I took the trouble to get on the internet (dial-up is a pain my....).

Monday, November 21, 2005

Do We Ever Really Change?

I am in some what of a philosphical mood. I was cleaning out our living room (it was filled with boxes) because we are having our house appraised next week and I spent time reminicing. I put in cds from 1 year(Joss Stone), 3 years(Christina Aguleria) and 5 years ago (Monica) and began cleaning. I ended up doing more thinking than cleaning. I was partially hidding from my three hyperactive nieces. I began to wonder if we ever really change. Sure, we grow older and our tastes change (especially in music) but do we ever actually completly change? I have always been an introvet who pretends to be an extrovert. If I were able to choose, I would pick a night in alone with a cd player over a party any day. While I find myself being more sociable I also find myself enjoying my stolen moments alone more than I used to. Maybe I enjoy the stolen moments of silence more because I live in an active and constantly people filled house. I find myself trying to change yet the old ways are so comfortable and so easy to fall back into. How do we go about making a complete change? How do we actually discover who we "are?" Are we faking it all along? Sometimes I feel like I am just a good actress instead of someone who truly knows what she wants. Don't get me wrong, I love my life. I am just having moments of self doubt since I am so close to graduation. Can I really make it? What if I get into a classroom of my own and I find that I really don't like it? Then what? Have I wasted 5 years of my life preparing for a career I hate? Why am I being so philisphical? Have I suddenly turned into Carrie Bradshaw (Sex in the City)? How do I go about changing into the person I think I want to be when everything else around me is still the same? How do I expand my horizon's in a town where everyone is no narrow minded? How do I "grow up" when all I want to do is go back to a time when everything made sense?

Holiday Gift Giving Gone Bad

Ok, so after discussing presents with my husband, I asked the ever important and hardly ever directly answered question, "What do you want for Christmas?" I never really was given any clues. "What ever you want to give me." Is not a correct answer in my mind. I really have no clue. What do you get a 6'10", soccer playing, playstation loving, master chef car salesman? Keep in mind that I do not like the playstation so playstation games are out of the picture. We also currently do not have a house of our own, so getting something practical to help us live (pots and pans set) does not work either. Heck, I even forget everything we were given for wedding presents. I could always do the good old stand by and order jeans for him off of but that isn't a fun present. His mother stole the good gift idea I had. Bah humbug. I can say that now that I am teaching A Christmas Carol to my seventh graders. Speaking of 7th graders. My cooperating teacher is out today (he is having a big stress test, trust me he needs it) and I do not have a sub in here with me. It doesn't bother me, but if something happens, it is the schools butt and not mine! Oh well, off to plan for next week. yeah, only 13 days left of student teaching!!

Laws Governing Mondays

I have developed a theory about Mondays. Every Monday follows a simply code or conduct. Every Monday must suck. Here is my reasoning. Today (Monday) I overslept because the volume on my alarm was turned way down (thanks to my niece). I was then caught by a train on my way out of town. I was then stuck behind a school bus that stopped at every driveway for at least 3 miles. I then walk into school to discover that my cooperating teacher is going to be gone all day for some stress test and I have to throw something together. I attempted to throw together a "Welcome to the first day of Tri-2" lesson plan, but I'm positive that just because it is Monday, it will suck.

Saturday, November 19, 2005


Ok, so I was reviewing the evaluation I was given on Thursday for student teaching when I realized I was only given a "3" for appropriate dress. I had worn grey dress slacks and a mauve blouse. I had worn that outfit one other time when I was being evaluated and I was given a "4." I emailed my evaluator and asked why the difference. I thought I was wearing a nice outfit considering the teachers in the school I am in come to work in jeans and a t-shirt. She said that my shirt wasn't ironed. I am ticked because I purposely spent time washing and ironing both my pants and shirt the night before. Here is my logic. I did iron it. If I wear the shirt for 6 hours before you see me, I am bound to create some wrinkles (I wore a coat, I sat in a computer desk chair, etc.). I know that I shouldn't be mad, it was only one "3" but I feel like she was hypocritical. If she took the time to look at my supervising teacher (who was in jeans, a white undershirt and hiking boots) she would have realized that I was dressed up. Just to retaliate, on Friday I wore jeans, a pink pull over (tunic style) sweater and sneakers. Oh well. It's just another boring Saturday afternoon with nothing to do so I am freaking out about little stuff from the past.

I had planned on reading all day but I can't seem to find my book. I might have to venture under the bed. YIKES! I did however manage to do 5 loads of laundry and clean the bathroom sink, toilet, tub and closet. Oh and I also helped to gut and clean 3 large deer this morning.

My father-in-law went hunting with a buddy of his and they were only out for an hour and they were able to shoot all three. It's odd that this city girl now knows how to shoot, clean, skin, quarter and process a deer, a cow and a pig.

I took my 2 year old niece out to see the deer (dad is trying to make her a tom-boy while mom wants a princess) because she wanted to mind you, I didn't drag her against her will. She kept pointing to the back of the truck and saying, "Shhh Marma, the deer is sleeping." It was funny. Then when we got ready to clean out the back of the truck she decided that the deer had "pooped" in grandpa's truck. She is defiantly not a girly girl because I had to keep her from picking up the esphogas after we cut it out. She kept saying the deer was "sticking its tongue out"' at her so she would to it back and sing the "Na Na Na Na Na." Of course, skiddish grandma was inside watching freaking out the whole time because there were three dead deer spread out across the back yard and all three of her granddaughters were helping. Well I still have two episodes of "Sex in the City" to watch (gotta love Netflix).

Friday, November 18, 2005

My Mother Is Going To Be Around FOREVER

Ok, after re-reading the title, I am sure some of you are thinking that I am an ungreatful little spoiled brat. Here is my reasoning. My mom as 3 cats (granted two are mine that live with her for the moment) and two dogs (one is mine and one is my sisters "nina" Hey, I successfully insterted a link! Haha. See teachers think that spreading finals out over two days is a waste, but I say, heck! Give me two days of finals and I can blog all day! Ok, so thats not funny is it. Its the migraine. Back to "Willy Wonka."

Not Sure How I Feel

I read this story in the newspaper last night and again this morning on the internet. I am not sure how I feel yet. I am wondering what other people think. Since I am not a parent, I do not have that "set of eyes." But I do think I have the "set of eyes" that comes with an education degree. As an educator I am excited that a parent is taking an active role in their child's life. Yet I am wondering if other options were tried or if other options should be tried.

"Tasha Henderson, right, and her daughter, Coretha, left, pose for a photo outside their home in Edmond, Okla., Friday, Nov. 11, 2005, with the sign Coretha was forced to hold for an hour at a busy intersection so that passing motorists could read it. The 14-year-old freshman already has been forced by her parents to give up basketball and track because of slipping grades, and said she hopes to improve in school so she can play next year. (AP Photo) "

A Day To Blog

Well, once again I am watching "Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory." 3 out of my 4 classes have already taken their finals (took them yesterday) so they decided they wanted a movie day and I decided that "Willy Wonka" would be the lesser of two evils (they wanted "Pirates of the Caribbean"). After the first time, it's really not that funny, just creepy. These buggers have managed to infect me with their germs. I have a ragging migrain that tylenol is not touching. I also feel sick to my stomach. It is going around here, heck half of the kids are out with the stomach flu. Ahh, but I am stuck here for the rest of the day. I only wish I could turn off the lights and take a nap. unfortunatley, I don't trust the kids to have both sets of lights off, so my room is like that weird twilight time when you can't really see anything. Ahh, the joys of a tri-mester schedule. Maybe I should grade something or fight with the computerized gradebook and enter in grades. Or, I could just do something mindless like watch the movie again....

Praying for Patience

I have always been told not to pray for patience, so when I met my "cooperating teacher" for my middle school student teaching experience, I prayed for guidance. Ok, so I knew I couldn't trick God, but I thought if I didn't specifically say "patience" then I wouldn't specifically get "patience." Ok, so my logic is a wee bit twisted and off, but whatever. So after being through a "hell" like situation for the past three weeks, I have come to a conclusion. God is teaching me patience by "allowing" me to work with this certain teacher. He is a bit of a distracted and hyperactivity kindergarten. He is disorganized and a bit out there and we are like oil and water. After taking with my University Supervisor and other student teachers, I have come to realize that I only have three weeks left, and if I can survive the first three weeks, I can certainly survive the last three weeks. Monday starts a new tri-mester and I am worried. I just discovered that in my first period class I will have 38 students. 38! That is way to many! That is 18 too many! I don't even have that many desks in my classroom. They have to bring me 5 more desks. I don't have the room for 5 more desks! Why don't school boards recognize overcrowding? Well, like I said, I survived the first three weeks I can survive the last three weeks.

Monday, November 14, 2005

Question from Husband

While driving home from a day of Christmas shopping, my husband asked a question that I still cannot get out of my mind. He asked, "Do you ever regret getting together so young?" My initial reaction was, "Well, no. I was lucky enough to find my husband early in life and only had to endure one bad relationship before finding my prince." But as I have spent the day thinking about the question, I would like to change my answer. I do love my husband and I am very happy, but the "what if" questions keep sneaking into my brain today. How would our relationship be different if we had dated other people before we met each other? We both had experienced one "serious" relationship before finding each other. But I wonder what life would be like now, if it were different back then.
Ok, side note: I am sitting right by the phone, my mother in law answers it. It was my husband, yet she hangs up on him and doesn't hand me the phone!? Whatever, she is in one of her spazoid moods, hence why I am on the computer. Well I keep getting an evil eye for being on the computer when company is over for dinner (they are always here, its my brother in law and his family). I can't tell if she is glaring at me or just trying to see what I am typing. Either way, I should get going.

Sunday, November 13, 2005

"Look At Me, I Don't Do Pretty!"

In honor of my "unpretty" sister, I am going to tell a funny story. Although I am sure it won't be as funny to all of you it will cause my sister and I to laugh. After spending the morning shopping with my sister (odd, we have been getting along. She is 7 1/2 years older than me and often we bicker) we stopped for lunch at a popular local sandwhich shop (The Breadbasket). We were talking about something pretty, when my sister said (in a loud voice), "Look at me, do I look like I do pretty. I Don't Do Pretty!" This is funny because she was wearing a lovely ensamble (a Michigan Pride shirt, layered under a lovely flannel shirt, washed out green cargo pants and unspiked fluffy hair). The restaurant is very small, and of course, everyone turned to look and immediatly started to snicker. Thus her phrase is now famous. About two minutes later, I repeated the now famous phrase back to her and at the same time we both shouted, "This is getting blogged!" So there Nat, it has now been blogged!! I should get back to work considering it is Sunday night at 6:30 and I only have a lesson plan for Monday done and I still have 63 5 page projects to grade and record.

Friday, November 11, 2005

What Movie Are You?

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Kinda funny. I love that movie!!

Small Town Boredom

I have never minded living in a small town. As a teenager with a driver's license, living in a small town was your ticket to the family car. If you wanted to go see a movie, you had to drive. As an "adult" I discovered both the positive and negative aspects of a small town. But on a day like today, I am wishing I lived in a larger town. I have the day off of student teaching and I have nothing to do. My husband and sister are working and all of my friends have headed elsewhere for the weekend. I would enjoy window shopping, but window shopping is not fun at Wal-Mart. Oh sure, I could be grading the million projects the students completed. But I thought I'd take the day off. Heck, I got up at 8 and completely cleaned the bedroom. Small town life can be boring and today is one of those days.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Random Comments

Ok, I propose a new "law" for blogs. People should not be allowed to advertise in the comment section. Yes, I know where to dollar store is. No I do not want to join your website. Yada yada yada. Do I call your house asking you to join my organization? Nope. Do I write in your comment section adverstising the family construction business (by the way, if you do need something done in the NE Indiana area, let me know :)? No. Grrr. Wow, working with 7th graders has made me grouchy. Ok, well maybe I should actually go do something with the rug rats. (ok, don't think that I'm a bad person. Geez. They are in the library with the sub. Its not like they are running free around the school or something.)

What type of dog am I?

Ok, so yes, I am bored. But having fun eating powdered cheese. So I decided to find out what type of dog I am. And the survey says...Berger De Picard. Never head of it. Apparently I am a dog from france that enjoys hearding sheep. Whatever.


Ok, so I am not as intellegent as my sister (i swear nat if you use that against me, embarassing pictures will appear) and I cannot figure out how to put a picture into my "profile" so I am going to attempt to copy and paste a picture of my wedding announcment here. Cross your fingers...

Hey, look it worked. Dang, my hair was long. Look at Ayron's sideburns. Elivs has left the building.

Wisdom Teeth Wisdom

I wrote this in May after having all four of my wisdom teeth cut out. My sister posted it in her blog, so I decided to steal back my writing from her and post it in my blog!

Everyone- After becoming sick of the comment ("if you have your wisdom teeth out will you still be wise?") I have developed an answer. YES! After having mine out, all of mine, out on Friday I have learned some interesting and valuable things.

1. Nitrous Oxide is fun, in the beginning. It is when they ask you to stand up and move that it does odd things to your stomach.

2. That whole line the dentist gives you about "You won't feel a thing..." is a LIE. What they fail to mention is that an hour after the surgery when you are home resting quiety and the dentist is a safe distance away from your grasp the drugs will begin to wear off and you will begin to realize that you just paid some stranger a whole heck of a lot of money to cuase you pain.

3. Solid food is our friend. After eating nothing but applesauce(the mixed berry kind), rasberry yogurt (the kids kind), and soft serve ice cream I can no longer fill out my skinny pants. Every woman has that one pair of pants they cant bring themselves to throw out because "someday" she'll be able to lay one the bed, with a coat hanger, and struggle to get the zipper up. My "skinny" pants dont even stay up!

4. There are an unneccesary amount of food commericals on tv. When all I can do is lay there and "drink" jello, the television people decide they need to repeat the same Applebee's and Arby's commericals. All I can say is "Look out curly fries and steak cuz as soon as I can chew, you're mine!"

5. Malto-Meal is our friend. Yes, Grandma R is probably rolling over in her grave right now, but malto-meal is my friend. I woke up this morning with a craving for malto-meal. I hope this never happens again!

6. Codine does odd things to the R-family stomach. Tylenol rapid release has become my best friend! After many painful failed attempts to take the prescribed pain medicine with 7-up (why in the world if your stomach is already sick do they give you 7-up, the bubbles do not help! Sorry Chrissy, I do not belive you!).

7. Mom and A [the fiance--July 2nd] snore- Normally this does not bother nor shock me. But when you have to sleep in the recliner and they "volunteer" to sleep on the couch with you and you cannot have your codine, your mind begins to wonder if that blue pillow would actually fit in their mouths?

8. People are unneccessarly polite- While trying to take a walk around the cul-de-sac (fun word for funny shaped not complete circle) with the dog last night I ran into our neighbor. I know I looked funny, she knew I looked funny. She kept trying to "sneak" a peek at my face when I wasnt looking. She the polietly said "You look different." It wasn't a statement it was a question. People, I know I look funny! Come one! Laugh at me, I don't mind.

For all the complaining I've done, I'm sure one day I"ll be happy I had them out. When that day will arrive, I have no clue, but until then I have a fridge full of applesauce, icecream, and pudding to keep me company.

Today is Sesame Street's 35th Birthday!!!

In honor of Sesame Street's 35th birthday I have decided to discover what muppet I am. Ok, so they are not related, at least not that I know of. But it is prep period, there is a "party" (ok, so if we get caught we are celebrating Big Bird's birthday), and I don't feel like grading or planning. Hard to create lesson plans when there is an abundance of fake powdered cheese flowing.

You are Kermit the Frog.You are reliable, responsible and caring. And you
have a habit of waving your arms about
FAVORITE EXPRESSIONS:"Hi ho!" "Yaaay!" and
"Sheesh!"FAVORITE MOVIE:"How Green Was My Mother"
LAST BOOK READ:"Surfin' the Webfoot: A Frog's Guide to the
HOBBIES:Sitting in the swamp playing banjo.
QUOTE:"Hmm, my banjo is wet."

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Middle School Mania

Well, after succesfully (no one died, heck no one even bled) teaching a middle school classroom for a week, I think I can survive the rest of this 6-week training. I was skeptical at first. Middle schoolers are just, annoying. I know, somone in education shouldn't say that about students, but it's the truth. My "supervising teacher" (it's in quotes because the guy is crazy, no really crazy. I'm talking Robin Williams on crack crazy) was gone all this week. We had our differences at first, but I think this week will prove to him that I know what I'm doing. I have more fun hanging out with the high school service workers (they are having a celebration in my room right now) than I do with the middle school students or the other teachers. Well, I should go grade their projects so I can have some weekend time to relax.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Dorfus Chickenhump

The following is excerpted from a children's book, Captain Underpants And the Perilous Plot Professor Poopypants, by Dave Pilkey, in which the evil Professor forces everyone to assume new names...

1. Use the third letter of your first name to determine your new first name:

a = snickle b = doombah c = goober d = cheesey e = crusty
f = greasy g = dumbo h = farcus i = dorky j = doofus k = funky
l = boobie m = sleezy n = sloopy o = fluffy p = stinky q = slimy
r = dorfus s = snooty t = tootsie u = dipsy v = sneezy w = liver
x = skippy y = dinky z = zippy

2. Use the second letter of your last name to determine the first half of your new last name:

a = dippin b = feather c = batty d = burger e = chicken f = barffy
g = lizard h = waffle i = farkle j = monkey k = flippin l = fricken
m = bubble n = rhino o = potty p = hamster q = buckle r = gizzard
s = lickin t = snickle u = chuckle v = pickle w = hubble x = dingle
y = gorilla z = girdle

3. Use the third letter of your last name to determine the second half of your new last name:

a = butt b = boob c = face d = nose e = hump f = breath g = pants
h = shorts i = lips j = honker k = head l = tush m = chunks n = dunkin
o = brains p = biscuits q = toes r = doodle s = fanny t = sniffer
u = sprinkles v = frack w = squirt x = humperdinck y = hiney z = juice

Saturday, November 05, 2005

Procrastination Pounces Persistently

I have decided that the portfolio process required of education students at IPFW (an other colleges) only teaches two things. Oraganization and procrastination. I spent countless hours 3 weeks ago updating my portfolio and only had 2 more artifacts to complete. After spending that much time on the other 28 artifacts plus other introductory mandatory materials, I can't make myself do the last 2 things. I have the portfolio spread out over the entire dinning room table. It is like the last 4 1/2 years of my education has just vomitted all over the room. Depressing that I pay so much money, and my whole education comes down to a 4 inch thick binder. Sad, but true. And the kicker is, all of this work leads to a job in education. Don't get me wrong, I love education, and I love what I am doing. But lets be realistic, teachers at a public high school get paid...well...on average...SQUAT. We do it for the love of the kids. Sounds corny, I know, but it's true. Well at least my portfolio is almost done. Let see what else I can find to do instead of working on it.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Getting To Know You...Getting To Know All About You

Copy, paste, answer, add one of your own:

Have You Ever...

1. smoked a cigar - nope, I've never smoke anything. I'm being honest!
2. crashed a friend's car - nope, never even crashed my own
3. stolen a car - no
4. been in love - yes
5. been dumped - nope, mutual dumping
6. dumped someone - see #5
7. taken shots of alcohol - jello shots (the blue ones made by Carie are the best!)
8. been fired – nope, but I've been "let go" because of budget cuts at the animal shelter
9. been in a fist fight - nope
10. snuck out of a/your house - yes
11. had feelings for someone who didn't have them back - yes
12. been arrested - almost
13. made out with a stranger - nope
14. gone on a blind date - nope
15. lied to a friend - yes
16. had a crush on a teacher - nope
Hey? Where did 17 go??
18. seen someone die - nope
19. been on a plane - yes, many times
20. thrown up in a bar - nope, haven't actually been in a "real" bar since my 21st birthday.
I actually ended up playing designated driver for a friend who was given a BAD drink. I love
ya BP!
22. miss someone right now - yes
23. laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by - yes
24. made a snow angel - yes
25. played dress up - Does a wedding dress count a dress-up?
26. cheated while playing a game - yes
27. been lonely - yes
28. fallen asleep at work/school - school, yes. work, no
29. used a fake id - nope
30. felt an earthquake - nope, but i'd probably pee myself
31. touched a snake - yes
32. run a red light - not to my knowledge
33. had detention - never
34. been in a car accident - yes, in the fifth grade. Everyone can thank me for the stop light at
entrance rap to I-69 in Auburn
35. hated the way you look - not HATED, that is such a strong word
37. been lost - yes
38. been to the opposite side of the country - I've been as far as Arizona
39. felt like dying - yes
40. cried yourself to sleep - yes
41. played cops and robbers - nope, I'm not stupid, my sister would have tied me up!
42. karaoke - no
43. done something you told yourself you wouldn't - yes, I got married
44. laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose - nope
45. caught a snowflake on your tongue - DUH! I live in Indiana!!
46. kissed in the rain - yes
47. sang in the shower - yes
48. made love in a park - nope
49. had a dream that you married someone - yes
50. glued your hand to something - nope
51. got your tongue stuck to a flag pole - nope
52. worn the opposite sex's clothes - yes, have you seen my size 11 feet!
53. Been a cheerleader – nope, but I know all of the Garrett cheers "We want a touch down,
gotta have a touch down, hey, hey, hey!"
54. sat on a roof top - yes, my father-in-law owns a construction business
55. talked on the phone all night - yes
56. ever too scared to watch scary movies alone – yes
57. played chicken fight - nope
58. been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on - nope
59. been told you're hot by a complete stranger - nope
60. broken a bone - nope
61. had a 3-some? - nope
62. dipped snuff? - nope
63. lived overseas - been there twice, two weeks the first time three the second time, does that
64. Ever passed out/fainted? - yes, after giving blood at Garrett during a blood drive
65. blown bubbles in the wintertime - nope
66. slept in your car? - yes, everytime Ayron drives
67. given money to a stranger? - yes
68. forgot your birthday? - nope. Forgotten how old I am, yes.
69. forgot your best friend's birthday? - no comment.
70. been in the presence of the Pope or the President? - nope
71. failed a test? - yes
72. failed a class? - yes, why do they let people who can't speak English teach math at a Big Ten
73. accurately predicted a future event? - nope
74. slept overnight in a hospital without being a patient? - yes
75. realized a dream? - yes
76. called someone on the phone and forgot who you were calling or why you called them as soon
as they answered the phone?- yes.

Bumping Into Old High School "Friends"

Four and a half years after graduating from a small town, many of my classmates have moved on. Yes, some have stayed, but for the most part, many have left the small town life in search of something more exciting. I started my middle school student teaching experience today at Leo Jr./Sr. High School and to my surpise, I ran into a "friend" from high school. I put friend in quotes because we shared a mutual friend. I haven't talked to this "friend" in four and half years and BAM! There she is, sitting in my classroom, observing me and my supervising teacher for an Educational Psychology course. God's timing is odd. I feel like she was placed in my classroom for a reason. Maybe I can help her through the extensive exit portfolio requirement. Whatever the reason, I feel called to become a true friend to her. God's time is odd!

Wednesday, October 26, 2005

Good-Bye Garrett

As I sit here in my cozy room filled with standard school desks, I am sad. Tomorrow is my last day student teaching at Garrett High School. I have fallen in love with the school and the students. Ok, stop, not like those crazy older teachers who have "relations" with their students! Yuck! Anyways, all of the classes have planned "suprise" parties for me today. They think they are sneaky, but they forget that I already have the hearing of a teacher even though I don't have the actual degree. Growing up, I went to the rival school in the county and did not like Garrett (sorry dad), but this whole experience has changed my mind. I don't want to leave this place! Niquil (for sleepless night before being observed) :$3.50 and proof of age. Purple and Green Pens for Grading: $2.75. College Tution for Semester: $2000. Having a wonderful student teaching experience: PRICELESS

WOW, this is a first!

After continually reading and responding to my sister' s "blog" I gave up and started my own. Partly out of curiosity and partly out of boredom. Looking back now I wonder if the title of my "blog" will come back to bite me in the butt. Long story. Well since I have no clue what I am doing, I'll hit the "publish post" button and see if the computer decides to actually work or have another heart attack. Cross your fingers, here we go.